Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Wants to be the doctor

So, today in my history of art photo class we watched this documentary on James Nachtwey a war photojournalist. I don;t know how but I was super fascinated in it. I know I certainly do not want to do what he does (in the sense of going beyond boundaries getting shots of horrible situations). I don't feel it's entirely wrong (well, the way he does it at least), but it's just not something of my interest. He did have this really great quote that I needed to get down. It's on his being in the middle of all the action of war, poverty, and famine:
"Fear is not what's important; it's how you deal with it. It would be like asking a marathon runner if they feel pain. It's not a matter of whether you feel it; it's how you manage it. It could happen to any of us, anytime. And we all know that this is a distinct possibility every time we go out, everyday it's what we face. It comes with the territory, it's part of the job, you go in knowing that from the beginning. Nobody feels sorry for themselves; it's just part of it."
I was so ready to just get out there and start making a career out of my photography. I feel like I've been so disenheartened because of how little challenge I've had so far. Plus there's the fact that I'm surrounded by people who don't care about photography, but need to get a studio credit. I'm also surrounded by people who shouldn't be in art photography, who think it's bullshit. It's so frusterating to have to deal with these people in class; one because they don't take things seriously, and two because they mess with things and get in the way of the people who actually want to make a career out of it. I don't have issues with non-majors taking the classes, that's basically what I'm doing in every other class of mine, but I feel like one should take everything seriously. Especially since we're in college now. We should take this as an advantage, that we have a saftey net and can make these mistakes now so that we know what to do in the future. I just feel like I need way more inspiration from insied the Syracuse Uni. climate. I do have a few people, but that's about it.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

You Get My Attention

E and I had another successful tuesday. Got to have sushi, spent a really long time browsing the bookstore, and helped me work on my photo project. I decided that what I wanted to do was mae a photo series on art movements. So I'm taking these pictures and morphing them to look like things such as pop art or cubism. The pictures I've taken thus far are quite promising. Before this I caught up on Gossip Girl and America's Next Top Model while E got ready. After the photoshoot we watched several movies, including 10 Things I Want to Hate About You. The public serenade gets me every time.

Last weekend was pretty ridiculous. Many memorable moments, and one I wish I had thought more about... Oh well. I'm putting it in the past, giving myself some space, and making sure I pursue something that makes me happy. I think I put myself into a random and pathetic rut and I really need to get out of it. I think a lot of it has to do with my families wishes, which is strange because I've never felt actual pressure before (plus there really isn't much pressure coming from them, it's more of something I feel needs to happen.) I need to experience things that I haven't, so I've been trying to pursue and worry too much. Maybe now that I've recognized this I'll be able to go in a different direction. Only friends for now... we'll see if anything will ever happen.

Monday, September 17, 2007

Friday, September 14, 2007

Natural Looking Results

I keep on getting put in an embarrassing situation. Whatever, I wasn't emotionally attached, but would rather not ever have been put in the position of the one being embarrassed. I hate being the fool, I like to be in control, or at least know what's actually going on with someone else. I haven't been given any reason to ever try out a relationship or whatever it'd be classified. Things have always ended with my confusion and someone else's ducking out. It's even harder having to tell friends, because that's when people begin to pity, and no one should pity me. Whatever, now that J's back things are getting awesome with friends. Plus I got my camera baby back! No more making lame projects from old stuff. People should come on over to the apartment and read our "List." It's fablously awkward.

Sunday, September 9, 2007

We Just had a Good Time

So things have started to change... I won't talk much about it, but it's all getting good. Apartment living is quite nice. Having nothing to do is also pretty nice. Yesterday E, A & I went to Target for some necessary and some unnecessary purchases:

After Target, E and I played a drinking game to High School Musical 2, let's just say we didn't have to worry about much else for the rest of the night. Saw some more friends, found out some new information, and actually didn't have to deal with the obnoxious neighbors partying outside our window on a slip n slide.

Saturday, September 1, 2007

I remember how the darkness doubled

Um, party time. I had a little magazine shoot for school's mini-magazine... I was actually a model (hard to believe, I know!). But A-M and I decided it was payback time for our little neighbors' get togethers and figured it was about time to have a little fiesta. Maybe I'll take pictures... but it'll take a while to get them up since I only have my film cameras. Should be muy interesante. I do have my LOUD soundsystem, so maybe I'll play what gangstah rap I own, and aything else with a nice beat to it. The walls will be shaking!